Re: updates

Dear Josh,

Thanks for these warm wishes!! Yes, while the results are ███ ████, the implications are yet unclear - guess will learn more at Friday's appointment, but there is a likelihood of further investigation and ██ █████████ █████ █████ ██████████ ██ █████ ██ ██ █████ ████. In any case, I will be applying for a couple of jobs in Europe this month, because low stress, decent healthcare and continued employment at Goldsmiths (or life in the UK) increasingly seem less compatible as propositions.

That's interesting to hear about the development of the publication over this period, and people dropping out by default, the kind of 'soft-collapse, silent expressions' you describe. It's sobering to think of what levels of anxiety and simply inability to account for one's inabilities people must be trying to negotiate to drop out like this, and it makes me feel my situation is relatively luxurious - or just relatively ordinary - if I stay in contact and adhere however errantly to deadlines, albeit with the significant delays which I think have also happened from my side. Your patience and nuanced acknowledgement of how systemic these 'lapses' are is something I both appreciate personally but also find inspiring politically.

Regarding the emails, I am not sure I can go through every single one - admire your scope! - but will just say that anywhere we, or rather I, am getting into the weeds of ████ ████ ████ ██ ██████ █████████ █ ██ ███████ ████ ██ maybe passages that can be 'blurred out', so to speak, as am still dealing with an indecisiveness about how open I want to be █████ ██ ██████, or, rather, it remains a situation-specific case for now, which means I am not sure how I feel about the information generally circulating. Obviously I am committed to higher-than-average levels of boundary-defense as a non-social media user, so this might be an outgrowth of that reflex too....Hope that all makes sense.

And let's plan to meet a bit later in the month, when am feeling more in the picture about everything.

very best,

Marina

Dear Josh,

That sounds like a good configuration, a lot of work for you - yes, totally happy to pick up on my part of that task with the nominated passages.

Before the 17th sounds very do-able, but should refrain from making any plans until ████ ████████ ████ ███ ███████ █████ ████ ██ ███████ ████████████████ ████████ ████ ██████ I'm confident that we can realise a dinner plan though, just more a matter of which day exactly.

Thanks for the good application wishes! I need to hunker down and get them done, as I am very prone to behaving as if these things will write themselves until the last minute has started elapsing.

Hope the roasting is, at least for this week, definitely shifted to mild and temperate after this soggy evening.

all my best,

Marina

Dear Josh,

Shall we do not this coming week, but the week after? If it involves a walk through some woods, that's an added incentive.

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Food and drink restrictions - no meat, wheat or sugar. That's about it. looking forward!

all my best,

Marina